In just one snap

Funny when the one thing that you thought doesn't matter to you for years..could make you feel like you just wanted to die in just one snap..,

I just woke up around 3am and this random thought suddenly came to my head... thinking of Phijay .,i wish i could turn back the time..so i could take back my words..that i wanna be free from him..it sucks that after 3yrs of not caring, i just found myself missing him.,why now ko lang na-realized how great his love was for me...?? just hurt a lot that i wanna die ( not literally though,msakit weh) in sleep...hope this is just for now..

Appreciating Sadness

Sometimes when im feeling okay.,i find it a lil boring.,don't get me wrong,im a happy person.,i love being happy.,but sometimes i kinda miss being sad.,the feeling of being heartbroken.,cause it is when i appreciate the lyrics of a song.,it motivates me to write and express my feelings.,it reminds me to appreciate what i have over what i need.,sadness makes me aware that even if someone left, the real people who loves me are still there.,sadness makes me thankful for my family and friends who embrace me with their unconditional love especially when im in my lowest moment., Being sad doesn't necessarilymake you an emo.,being sad is a form of connecting to your innerself., discovering yourself.,and knowing the importance of the people who really matters.,See? Its not that bad.,

Now.,I might be crazy thinking bout you.,while ur busy thinking of
someone else.,
Now.,You must be very happy taking care of her heart, while ur breaking mine.,
Now.,I maybe holding on to your promise while u've already forgotten
all about it.,
But time is my friend.,
Tomorrow you'll see.,
Everything will change.,and my feelings is no exception.,
Just watch me..

Crazy thoughts 1

"..have u ever think of me even once? You may not be in my thoughts as much as before,.but every now and then, especially when im alone.,i sometimes thinks of u.,i want to convince myself that you're just busy
with some stuffs.,but do you think its an excuse enough.,? "