Your eyes, telling me lies
And making me find myself
While you have your
agenda, a life to pursue
So please,
Let me be free from you.
And please, let me be free
I can face the truth.
And making me find myself
While you have your
agenda, a life to pursue
So please,
Let me be free from you.
And please, let me be free
I can face the truth.
Feb.13,2009.,bisperas ng Valentines.,im so happy while partyin sa Habbo.,nsa house kmi ng bebe Sky qoh.,sobrang saya me at dat time.,nkikipag-aningan me kc lhat ng friends qoh andun.,music.,lights.,kala mo 22o tlga.,nag-invite pah me ng mrami sa mga online friends qoh kea halos mpuno ung room ni Sky.,then 2munog cellphone qoh.,a text from my highschool classmate.,Welter.,krrating nea lang gling ibang bansa & when he asked me if kmi pah ni Phijay.,nkwen2 qoh ung bout ky Hubby (naruto).,he was so suprised & curious.,aun ngtext xa,telling me dat napanood nea daw ung group nina Hubby sa youtube.,halimaw daw pla sa sayawan ung group nila.,a part of me xempre proud.,but another part of me bglang nlungkot..,Umalis me bgla sa party nila Sky & i went to my room sa Habbo.,aq lang mg-isa dun.,ngPM cla why me bglang umalis eh ngkksayahan.,sabi qoh i need some quiet time.,alone time.,wla andun lng me.,tinitingnan q character qoh.,ng-iisa.,iniisip qoh xa.,ung situation nmen.,how much i missed him.,then bglang ngring ung doorbell.,isip qoh ayoko istorbo kc im not in the mood.,and lam u kung cnu nsa door.,it was HIm.,ngulat me kc sobrang aga pah pra mg-OL xa.,nde qoh akalain n sakto pa dating nea.,aun 2muloy xa sa room qoh & naupo..nde q lam if kkausapin qoh b xa or what.,lumapit me s knya.,face to face.,isa lng nsabi qoh.,"Y?" .,un lng..ala response from him.,isip qoh bka AFK (away from the keyboard) xa.,then i left him.
Bumalik me sa party ni Sky pero wla na tao.,c bebe Sky nlng & c Alfie.,cebuano ren c Alfie & he wants to talk with Hubby sna.,kso inalisan qren cla dun kc nga wla lng.,pumunta me sa Cinema.,aq lng dun mg-isa hanggang sa dumating cla.,lhat cla.,ngkulitan.,they were all happy while aq aun umoorder.,kung 22o nga lang nkkaorder dun bka isang case ng SanMig maorder qoh weh.,then ngulat me kc andun n nman xa.,nkaupo.,mg-isa.,my friend Ahnne was there.,alam nea ung bout smen.,she asked me what happened samen 2.,na-sad xa 4 us.,then c Hubby whenever san me umupo.,tinatabihan nea me..,lage me umiiwas kc sabi ni Ahnne.,cguro dapat daw aq nah ung umiwas.,kea un.,pero lam mo khit virtual lng un..khit super sandali lng ung pagttabi nmen.,ung feeling n mgkatabi lng kmi.,tahimik.,it feels so good.,sobrang happy & sad.,prang ngcoconnect kmi at that moment.,im no sure if un ang nfeel nea.,kc 4 me gnun.,magical feeling.,nde ma-explain.,
So un nga lage me umaalis khit msakit sken umiwas..,khit at that very moment gusto q xa yakapin & umiyak sa knya..kc nfi-feel q ren ung sadness nea khit character lng ung nkikita qoh.,ewan qoh ba prang pati character nmen at that time mlungkot.,nde qoh alam kinausap pla xa ni Ahnne thru PM.,aun tinanong xa ni Ahnne if we're ok..,Nde nga daw & break n kmi,sbi nea.,Ng-ask daw c Ahnne if 3rd party ba..,sbi nea sobra daw kc dami trials & sobrang malayo kmi sa isa't isa.,(cebu xa,manila me).,nde nya daw ata kaya..,nhurt me sobra nung cnabi nea un.,kc kala qoh he have plans 4 us.,n nde problem ang layo nmen.,i remember ung cnabi nea b4 na nde problem ang layo nmen kc preho pren nmn kmi nasa Pinas.,pero cguro.,bka nga nde nea kinaya ung trials.,i thought aq mas matimbang khit bago lng me.,kala qoh aq mas mahal nea aq & he needs time lng.,sabi nea "patience" lng,everything will be ok den 4 us..,un pala "sabi lang nea un".,nde pren aq pinili nea.,sabagay cnu b nmn me...isang gurl lng n umenter sa life nea.,
After that umalis na xa.,sinabihan daw xa ni Ahnne na iwasan nlng me pra nde n daw me mhurt lalo.,oo daw..na-sad aq.,kc it means ni-let go nea n tlaga me.,ng-usap kmi kina Sky..c Esmawell andun den.,kinakausap nea nga pla c Hubby while nsa cinema kmi pero ewan qoh ignore xa ni Hubby.,lam qoh aware den c Esmawell sa ngyayari kea he's trying 2 be friendly ky Hubby.,aun cnabi sken lhat2x ni Ahnne.,i asked her if sa tingin nea,mhal kea me ni Hubby.,sagot nea "cguro kc concern sken c Hubby..pero tingin nea daw mas mahal ni Hubby ung isa kc nde nea nga maiwan 4 me.," SaKit..,nilayasan qoh ule cla kc e2ng c Esmawell inaasar pah me eh bad mood n nga me.,
Ngpunta me sa bgo qng fave place sa Habbo.,ahm i forgot the name.,Chromdome ata.,aun ng-stay me dun.,gusto qlng solohin ung sama ng loob qoh.,then biglang dumating c Sky.,lam u these past few days mejo mdalas kmi mgkatampuhan n2ng bebe qoh.,after nung ngtapat xa bout his feelings 4 me na nde qoh namn mxadong pinansin kc i thought ng-aaning lng xa.,cguro mga past 11pm un.,lumapit xa sken.,and asked me if ok lng ba me.,sabi qoh nde.,sabi nea,"share?".,aun cnabi qoh s knya.,nhalata nea nren daw n c Hubby ung ex qoh in real life s Habbo.,kc khit daw nde nea kmi naiintindihan, nraramdaman daw nea ung samen ni Hubby.,(gosh 2mutugtog now ung "bakit ngayon ka lng"..arrggghh,pasaway..)
So un nga.,explain me sa knya.,naabutan n nga kmi ng saktong 12am.,ngbatian kmi ng Happy Valentines.,npalipat pah kmi sa Sun Terraces.,(sabi qoh,"bat d2?nsad me lalo d2.." kc nga d2 kmi ngkkatagpo ni Hubby once.,and e2 fave place nea..) pero sabi qoh cge dun nlng kmi usap at least thimik.,.aun 2loy usap nmen.,d2 qoh kinuwento ung 22ong situation nmen ni Hubby.,nttawa pah nga me kc.,nung my dumating n gurl,kinakausap c Sky.,he told her to shut up.,napahiya ung girl kea aun umalis.,hahaha (1st laugh qoh sa day n2.) Nkinig xa ng sobrang mbuti.,as in.,then he gave me some advice.,i know its hard for him kc nga bout sa cnabi nea sken..,Honestly, i like him den nman kso nga ayokong gumamit ng ibang tao just to move on.,not now.,grabe ung mga advice sken ni Sky.,ang lalalim pero 22o.,inabot n kami ng 2am.,sa sbrang seryoso nmen.,i know gusto nea lng pagaanin loob qoh.,& im thankful 2 him.,kc he's so sweet pra mg-abala n pkinggan me.,
At the end of the day.,sabi qoh kay Sky.,hhayaan qoh nlng c Hubby.,isipin qoh nlng if mahal nea tlga me.,ggawin nea lhat just to prove it.,khit anu pang trials,kkyanin nea...if nde....maybe nde nea tlaga me mhal.,and i should forget all our memories...Happy Valentines..
Bumalik me sa party ni Sky pero wla na tao.,c bebe Sky nlng & c Alfie.,cebuano ren c Alfie & he wants to talk with Hubby sna.,kso inalisan qren cla dun kc nga wla lng.,pumunta me sa Cinema.,aq lng dun mg-isa hanggang sa dumating cla.,lhat cla.,ngkulitan.,they were all happy while aq aun umoorder.,kung 22o nga lang nkkaorder dun bka isang case ng SanMig maorder qoh weh.,then ngulat me kc andun n nman xa.,nkaupo.,mg-isa.,my friend Ahnne was there.,alam nea ung bout smen.,she asked me what happened samen 2.,na-sad xa 4 us.,then c Hubby whenever san me umupo.,tinatabihan nea me..,lage me umiiwas kc sabi ni Ahnne.,cguro dapat daw aq nah ung umiwas.,kea un.,pero lam mo khit virtual lng un..khit super sandali lng ung pagttabi nmen.,ung feeling n mgkatabi lng kmi.,tahimik.,it feels so good.,sobrang happy & sad.,prang ngcoconnect kmi at that moment.,im no sure if un ang nfeel nea.,kc 4 me gnun.,magical feeling.,nde ma-explain.,
So un nga lage me umaalis khit msakit sken umiwas..,khit at that very moment gusto q xa yakapin & umiyak sa knya..kc nfi-feel q ren ung sadness nea khit character lng ung nkikita qoh.,ewan qoh ba prang pati character nmen at that time mlungkot.,nde qoh alam kinausap pla xa ni Ahnne thru PM.,aun tinanong xa ni Ahnne if we're ok..,Nde nga daw & break n kmi,sbi nea.,Ng-ask daw c Ahnne if 3rd party ba..,sbi nea sobra daw kc dami trials & sobrang malayo kmi sa isa't isa.,(cebu xa,manila me).,nde nya daw ata kaya..,nhurt me sobra nung cnabi nea un.,kc kala qoh he have plans 4 us.,n nde problem ang layo nmen.,i remember ung cnabi nea b4 na nde problem ang layo nmen kc preho pren nmn kmi nasa Pinas.,pero cguro.,bka nga nde nea kinaya ung trials.,i thought aq mas matimbang khit bago lng me.,kala qoh aq mas mahal nea aq & he needs time lng.,sabi nea "patience" lng,everything will be ok den 4 us..,un pala "sabi lang nea un".,nde pren aq pinili nea.,sabagay cnu b nmn me...isang gurl lng n umenter sa life nea.,
After that umalis na xa.,sinabihan daw xa ni Ahnne na iwasan nlng me pra nde n daw me mhurt lalo.,oo daw..na-sad aq.,kc it means ni-let go nea n tlaga me.,ng-usap kmi kina Sky..c Esmawell andun den.,kinakausap nea nga pla c Hubby while nsa cinema kmi pero ewan qoh ignore xa ni Hubby.,lam qoh aware den c Esmawell sa ngyayari kea he's trying 2 be friendly ky Hubby.,aun cnabi sken lhat2x ni Ahnne.,i asked her if sa tingin nea,mhal kea me ni Hubby.,sagot nea "cguro kc concern sken c Hubby..pero tingin nea daw mas mahal ni Hubby ung isa kc nde nea nga maiwan 4 me.," SaKit..,nilayasan qoh ule cla kc e2ng c Esmawell inaasar pah me eh bad mood n nga me.,
Ngpunta me sa bgo qng fave place sa Habbo.,ahm i forgot the name.,Chromdome ata.,aun ng-stay me dun.,gusto qlng solohin ung sama ng loob qoh.,then biglang dumating c Sky.,lam u these past few days mejo mdalas kmi mgkatampuhan n2ng bebe qoh.,after nung ngtapat xa bout his feelings 4 me na nde qoh namn mxadong pinansin kc i thought ng-aaning lng xa.,cguro mga past 11pm un.,lumapit xa sken.,and asked me if ok lng ba me.,sabi qoh nde.,sabi nea,"share?".,aun cnabi qoh s knya.,nhalata nea nren daw n c Hubby ung ex qoh in real life s Habbo.,kc khit daw nde nea kmi naiintindihan, nraramdaman daw nea ung samen ni Hubby.,(gosh 2mutugtog now ung "bakit ngayon ka lng"..arrggghh,pasaway..)
So un nga.,explain me sa knya.,naabutan n nga kmi ng saktong 12am.,ngbatian kmi ng Happy Valentines.,npalipat pah kmi sa Sun Terraces.,(sabi qoh,"bat d2?nsad me lalo d2.." kc nga d2 kmi ngkkatagpo ni Hubby once.,and e2 fave place nea..) pero sabi qoh cge dun nlng kmi usap at least thimik.,.aun 2loy usap nmen.,d2 qoh kinuwento ung 22ong situation nmen ni Hubby.,nttawa pah nga me kc.,nung my dumating n gurl,kinakausap c Sky.,he told her to shut up.,napahiya ung girl kea aun umalis.,hahaha (1st laugh qoh sa day n2.) Nkinig xa ng sobrang mbuti.,as in.,then he gave me some advice.,i know its hard for him kc nga bout sa cnabi nea sken..,Honestly, i like him den nman kso nga ayokong gumamit ng ibang tao just to move on.,not now.,grabe ung mga advice sken ni Sky.,ang lalalim pero 22o.,inabot n kami ng 2am.,sa sbrang seryoso nmen.,i know gusto nea lng pagaanin loob qoh.,& im thankful 2 him.,kc he's so sweet pra mg-abala n pkinggan me.,
At the end of the day.,sabi qoh kay Sky.,hhayaan qoh nlng c Hubby.,isipin qoh nlng if mahal nea tlga me.,ggawin nea lhat just to prove it.,khit anu pang trials,kkyanin nea...if nde....maybe nde nea tlaga me mhal.,and i should forget all our memories...Happy Valentines..
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