its been 2 days since we broke up.,yeah c Naruto.,(i'll call him that kc fave nea ung anime na un weh..) haisst..Sinulog day..it all started nung morning,ngpaload me just 4 him..and take note ah,nde me ng-alltext.,unli me kc im not home so nde q mgagawang tawagan xa.,so yoko nman xang mg-alala kea ngpaload me.,d q n xa tinawagan b4 me umalis kc i know he's tired.,kc buong week nea mxado xa busy.,he knows nman na when it comes to his healt mxado me concern...Kso inantok n qoh lhat2x la preng text from him..its kinda strange kc umaga plang ngttxt n sken ung guy n un..ng-alala me... Mga hapon ngtxt nmn xa..ngtxtback me pero after ilang txt wla n nmn...i told him p nga my sa2bihin me s knya.,kinda important.,pero wla ignore nea lng weh.,then nung gabi ngtxt xa, asking "ANU UN?".,i text him back , sbi qoh "nevermind,nothing important.." .,ngreply xa "ANU NGA UN!?!" xempre nshock ang lola u..prang ang dting "oist ba't ang taray mo ha"..lam mo un ang lambing2x qoh s knya gnun nea nlng trayan.,ng wlang dhilan huh?? Eh lam u nman ang lola u my pgka-palaban den,sabi q
oh "eh bat ang taray mo?" (i forgot all the details kc poh ahm binura q n lht ng files qoh sa computer & cellphone,so la n xa sa sent items qoh.,hurt lng kc me pg nbabasa pa..bsta i remember tinawag qoh xang spoiled brat..) Spoiled nman kc tlga weh....lam mo un, ur giving all ur best na nga pra sa relationship neo,then gnun pah igaganti nea.,to think n wla Alam u ba kung ano reply ng lolo mo? " Ang dami mo ng tawag sken ah!Bkit umaangal ka na ata ah?!?" See? npaka-conceited nea...D na me ngreply after non khit gustong-gusto q mgreply kc uminit ulo qoh weh.,Prang hello,cnu ba sa tingin nde aangal sa ginagawa u now sken?? Prang isip2x qoh e2 b ung nkilala qoh b4 na guy??? e2 ba ung minahal qoh??So nde nga me ngreply kc prang ano pang point db?laki na ng ulo weh., Ngtxt xa ule non,sabi nea "we're done" n daw.,aq nman busy n busy kkatransfer ng more or less 2,000 n msgs nea sken sa computer kc napuno na cellphone q..(thanks sa nokia pc suite) ...mga ilang hours pah lumipas..mga past 3 am na un..aba ang cp qoh 2munog..c naruto..,e2 sbi nea..summarize q nah huh..
"Hey! (nice..hey twg sken,la b qng name?) pede po b pkidelete ung title sa ginwa mong youtube,andon kc name qoh weh.,mrmi kc ngtanong sken kung gawa q ba daw un.,pti pix & comments.,pkitanggal lng poh lhat ng tungkol sken,sna bukas nde q n mkita un.,thanks po.,dumating kc ang time n npagod n me.,honestly,nwala poh ung LOve q u..mhirap pilitin ang sarili q pra lng mhalin k ng lubusan,nde pla true love nramdaman q.,admire q lng attitude u & pgiging sweet mo.,mghanap ka nlng ng iba na 22ong mhal ka.,nbulag lng pla me.."
what da f*ck.,and u know what ilang text yan.,mga 15 ata.,paulit2x lng & putol2x..,u know what anu gus2 q gwin at that very moment.,prang gus2 qong liparin ung Cebu pra mbigyan qoh xa ng mg-asawang sampal.,ung tipong mging tattoo n sa face nea ung palm qoh?? Ok n sana ung gnun weh,sbihin nea nah nde nea n me mhal,pero ung dating n prang ang yabang2x.,well i guess its my fault den nmn kc pinalaki qoh ulo nea.,the nerve hah., Npataas tlga kilay qoh when he told me that minahal nea lng me because "mlambing" me? ung akala nea love nea me,nde pla.,,WHOA shittt.,ayoko n pla mging sweet if ganun?? ksalanan & panget n pla mging mlambing ngaun?? is it my fault n sweet me.,though lam q nmn na nde sa flirt n way ung tinutukoy nea kundi sa mxado me caring.,i know dat.,honestly.? nde nmn tlga me sweet sa lhat ng nging bf qoh.,and they're all telling me "maging sweet k nman.." kc maxado me ma-pride at that time.,im scared bka lumaki ulo ng guy pag mxado me nging sweet.,
Pero ngbago un.,kc once i lost a good bf just because mxado daw me bato.,let's call him "Spongebob"...lam qoh pg nbsa nea 2ng blog qoh,he'll know its him..syang nga un kc ang cute2x ng guy na un.,he's soooo sweet 2 me.,sobra s lhat.,xa lng ngbigay sken ng boquet of flowers.,khit my ibang tao he would say "iloveu" in front of them.,aq n nga lng nhihiya weh.,he would make punas pah dpat sa likod qoh one time kc pinagpawisan dw me.,"he's my fave ex",sbi qoh sa pics nea sa friendster qoh.,Eh aun dhil sa kalokahan qoh..because of my stupid pride and bato aun nghanap ng sweet! hehehe! pero ok lng nman kc hello d nmn tlga kmi bgay pra saken.,he's way too cute 4 me..,
From that moment on.,cnabi q sa self qoh.,pag ngmahal me ule.,ippakita q how much i treasure our relationship.,ill be super sweet na tlga.,d qoh na ihahide ang emotions qoh.,pra wla me regrets in the end.,lam mo un ntakot kc me na my mga bagay n nde qoh msabi at the end.,ung tipong wla na ung tao,nde mo pah npa-feel s knya na mahal mo xa.,kea un.,then i met this guy.,c Naruto nga.,at 1st though im nice nman to him my pgkasuplada pren kc ayoko sa bolero tlga.,but then i decided to open my heart 4 him.,kc naisip q.,unfair nman sa kanya.,what if sincere nmn tlga xa..I never thought that it would be the biggest mistake n ggwin qoh.,ung maniwala sa lht ng cnasabi nea...
Sbi nga ng friend qoh,ng-usap kmi sa fone., "bkit u ba xa minahal eh ang layo2x neo plus complicated pah situation nea?" Sgot qoh "ahm d qoh nga lam weh.,d ba pag truelove dw,wla nmng reason..tska ewan qoh kc lam mo un kc i thought preho nmeng love isat'isa.,(awww syet...my naalala me sa line n2 ah.,he told me that pla sa text...few days ago lng..he told me that wag qoh daw mxado intindhin mga problems nmen,ang important lam nmeng ngmmhalan kmi..LiaR.) so un nga sbi qoh kc feeling qoh destiny kmi.,na laban nmen pareho un.,wlang iwanan sa ere.,kc he told me b4 sa text "bsta aqoh i22loy qoh khit msaktan aq in the end,nsasau na if igigiveup u,kc i follow my heart"..sabi nea yan ha.,i dont know if tanda nea pah.,ngka-amnesia ata..ung tipong "u & me against the world ang drama nmen.." un ung answer qoh s friend qoh.,
Then mejo ntawa & napaisip me sa cnabi ng friend qoh.,ill call her pla ULAN.,sbi nea "anu k ba KahoN ok lng n maraming trials weh.,kung tlgang "u & me against the world" pero kung "me & me against the world" mngyayari eh wag nah.,kita u nman after ng lht ng ginawa u 4 him, na-aapreciate nea ba.?tpos lage nea pah inuuna mga sasabihin ng iba?if tlgang mhal ka nean khit anu trials ipgllaban ka nea..wla xang backbone.."
THINK....THINK....hmmmm uu nga noh...maybe tama nga c Naruto,..pinilit nea lng mhalin me.,but at least its not my lost d ba?? Im happy nren 4 myself kc nging totoo me sa self qoh.,and i know that nde me ngkulang :)
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